alone... once again piggy being aloneee...

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"Life is difficult.
This is a great truth, one of the greatest truths. It is a great truth because once we truly see this truth, we transcend it. Once we truly know that life is difficult - once we truly understand and accept it - then life is no longer difficult. Because once it is accepted, the fact that life is difficult no longer matters.

Life is a series of problem. What makes life difficult is that the process of confronting and solving problems is a painful one."

Will I be strong enough to accept it and my life wont be difficult? This year, is fully filled with downs. When will it ever be gone? Will I be strong enough to handle and accept it? Am I strong enough to do everything right? Will I?

Wednesday, July 07, 2004

Many things happen ever since school started... well.. I dread dread dread to go school... really dread... the only thing that keeps me go school is the training... but yesterday... history seems to be going to repeat... ... I am going to be replaced once I dont do well.. why? why is this happening? Once again I am going to get replaced!!! I really dont want... Been being a sub for 2years... and I didnt really play alot of matches for the school for the past 2 years.. all the major competition I am either injured... or... because I am not good enuff to play for the team... why? I thought I might get a chance this time round.. but.. no... I am not... soon I am going to waste my this chance...!!! -sighz- so sad... so sad... what is it that I need to improve? what? I dont know... what u mean by control? what u mean? i dun dare 2 ask u.. i got no guts 2 do so too.. haiz.. i dont wana be replaced!!! now... training dont really motivate me to go school... haiz... i feel that if tomorrow i dont show him what he wnats.. i think that is the end of me!!! how!? I know that if I dont do well I will be replaced... but I dont know what i have to do to keep to your expectation... u tell me.. i dont know how 2 pass well.. I understand.. i tried.. u told me i nid to ctach well... i know.. i tried.. now.. so what is my main prob? -sighx-

~*alone again at
12:45 PM

Friday, July 02, 2004

I really dont know why... I just felt so bad about it... haiz... -.-! Ms ting.. i know you cant read this.. but seriously I am really very sorry about this... But seriously.. I really dont know anything about VB... and I reallly feel like giving up everything when I am in class... I want to learn, I want.. but everytime in class I just felt so sad about it... -sighz- Ms Ting... I am really sorry... :( I guess I had disappointed you twice? haiz...

I just read maine's blog... cant see that she is so hurt... dear maine... cheer up k:) dont feel so sad about netball also... I understand how you feel... cause in secondary school this was what happened to me... and I feel like this for 3 years... _smilez_

I really dont know.. I am so afraid Priya, Macy they all will felt like maine... I dont want to snatch the position from you... I do not wish that...

~*alone again at
2:40 PM

+.+all AbOuT MiEee+.+
::xIaOyUn ThE pIgGy::
::Born on 18/08/87::
::Unqiue Leo::
::Yu Neng, EastSpring, Republic Poly::
::Sporty::
::Outgoing::
::Friendly?::
::Funny::
::Fun-to-be-with::
::Low self-esteem::
::Low self-confidence::
::Between Optismist and Pessismist::
::Sensitive::
::Emotional::
::Quite bad-tempered::
::Short::

++ mY cCaS++
::Table-Tennis::
::Badmintion::
::Librarian::
::Track & Field::
::Netball::
::Choir::
::Wushu::
::Basketball::
::Sports Club::

++ My AmBiTiOnS(in ranking)++
::PE Teacher::
::Netball Coach::
::Camp Instructor::
::In the sports field::
::In the business field::
::In the IT field::

++LOVES++
::Netball::
::Basketball::
::Running::
::Swimming::
::Badminton::
::Learning new sports::
::Manchester United::
::Surf the net and Chat::
::Laze around::
::Sleep & Slack::
::Green, Blue, Yellow::
::East Spring Netball team::
::Friends & Buddies::
::Hubby & 'Mummy'::
::Disciples & Shifu(Mr Teo)::
::Sister & Family::

++GoAlxXx & WiShEs++
**EAT VEGE!(leaf ONLY!)**
**Weight become 47kg**
**Self-confident**
**Self-Discipline**
**Not giving up easily**
**Determined in everything**
**Be myself**
**Move on to future**
**Not living in the past**
~~**B for EnG O's**~~
**Top 10% in RP**
**Admitted in local Uni**
**ESnetball perform well**
**Able to learn to accept the truth**
**All who I loves live happily**
**Exercise frequently**
**A good Netball Player regardless what position**
**Able to control the game**
**Able to calm down in game**
**Be a better player**
**Good bball player**
**Learning more sports**
~~**Back in action in Wushu**~~
**My 400m run within 1.2min**
**Beep test to be over stage 9**
**Better stamina**
**Speed increase**
**To be able to coach well**
**Be more firm and serious and forceful!**
**Completing my NYAA**
**ES Netball Club setting up**
**~~Jacket~~**
**~~"The road less travelled"~~ THANKS SHIFU!!!**
**Save more $$$**
**~~A sports bag~~ Thankx 2 my sis!**
**Man Utd Jersey**
**Sandalz**
~~**Sports Bra**~~
~~**Sports Short**~~
**Adidas Sports bag
Train up my wrist so that my ball travel faster

*mAiN`* *mY lIfE`* *mY sToRy`* *mY lInKsXs`* *uR tAgS`* *tHe XtRaZ`*